Mou Sukoshi

Holy shit, 4 years

It just hit me that I've had this blog for 4 years now. My life still sucks like hell though. I haven't made any improvements whatsoever. I think since 2004 very few things have changed with me other than moving to Kansas a couple of years ago. I'm still always broke and I still completely suck at go. You think I would have improved in 4 years but I haven't. Actually, I think I have managed to get even worse than the level of suck I was at 4 years ago (that's what happens when you barely play). *hangs head in shame*. At least I can say I have a goban now, not that I know anyone close to me who can play *sigh*

On another note, I got an order on my web store. I was very fucking surprised. Too bad the item they ordered is discontinued and out of stock lol. I had to e-mail the person and ask if they would be satisfied with an item that was similar to the one they wanted. I really need to update a lot of stuff. I'm just not in the mood though. I have to go through my website and delete all of the products that are discontinued. I also have to upgrade drupal. Hell, I need to upgrade movable type too but I'm way too fucking lazy. My blacklist script has mysteriously become fubar as well so now combating spam is even more tedious. I'll have to be content with closing the comment portion of old posts for now to make my life easier. Anyhow, more later.

iPhone 3G

Nothing much has been going on. I've had a pretty good past couple of days though. I went to work Friday out of sympathy for my poor manager who had to call everybody and ask people to come in for overtime. The iPhone was released Friday and the expected call volume would be a lot higher than normal. My entire day was nothing but irate at&t customers who were pissed off because they couldn't get the new iPhone. I think it's so hilarious that people actually think at&t should let them get a new phone at a discount whenever the hell they feel like getting a new phone. People were asking for supervisors left and right just to be told over and over that they can't get that piece of shit phone.

Today wasn't as fun as yesterday but it was still pretty amusing. I must say that the highlight of my day was a call I got 30 minutes or so before I had to leave from work. I had some lady who was getting a company discount call in bitching that the company is penalizing her for being a long-time customer. Because she gets a discount she has to upgrade in the at&t corporate store but they sold out of the devices pretty quick. She was just saying the same stuff over and over again and wanted to talk to the retention department because she's been with the company forever and shouldn't be treated like that blah blah blah etc. I finally had to tell the lady how sorry I was about the inconvenience but she can go to the corporate store and they would get a phone ordered for her. I told her that yes, you will have to wait a little longer to get it but the world will continue to turn. She started laughing in disbelief that I said something like that and asked me for my name and id. She had to be satisfied with my first name only though. I tell you, new apple products make their fanboys/girls turn into idiots if they can't have it immediately. I know one thing, I'm not going to stand in line anywhere for 4+ hours waiting to get something like that without calling and making sure I would be able to get the device at that particular location or not. I really have no sympathy for people like that. Get all of the god damn information before you go bitching and moaning about the unfair treatment you are getting. The world is not going to end just because you can't get the new iPhone within the first couple of weeks, I really promise you that it won't.

Reign Over Me and other things

I just finished watching this movie and I thought it was great. This is really the first time I've watched Adam Sandler in a serious movie and I think he did an excellent job. I think this movie got some nominations but that's fucked up, this movie should have won some awards. That's the problem with all these movie awards, it's only the shit movies that win while the good ones get passed over. I remember when crash came out, it didn't win a thing either and it was a great movie.

In other goings on, I played go on KGS after a long absence there, I had to re-register my name and everything. I have really gotten rusty. I didn't enjoy the game at all because it was so poorly played. The guy I was playing against was pissing me off too. After I ended up resigning (out of frustration because he was pretty much suiciding on the board and would not resign nor listen to the suggestions I was making to him) he told me he was playing a teaching game with me and he just wanted to see if I would catch his mistakes. I told him that seriously doubt he is as strong as me (which is not saying much, I am a horribly weak player and what little understanding of the game I did have, I've probably lost since I haven't played in so long). I told him that I felt insulted by how he was playing. He promised to play a better game the next time though. If you want to see what a crap game it was, you can download it here. I will worn you though, even as 9x9 games go, it was quite terrible on both sides probably.

Random Updates

Seems like one thing after another keeps happening to me. I finally got moved into a new place. The floor plan is exactly the same as the other house I was in. The only difference in the two houses is that the landlord here takes better care of his properties. This place has central air and heat (that I never turn on but I have and it works fine) and the only room with carpet is the living room. The two bedrooms are hardwood floor and the kitchen and bathroom have that cheap tile stuff (but it looks decent). The bathroom has a shower too. The only thing the other landlord did was attach one of the shower heads in the tub but the walls were just paint so it got moldy. I would always hook the shower head over one of the bars since it was high enough. Who wants to sit in the tub and clean yourself. The rent here is higher, 575/mo but that's not too bad. He doesn't care about my cats either. There is a pet deposit I owe of 280 but I haven't paid it yet. I've been here since the beginning of the month. When I give him the rent for next month I will give him an extra 100 so I can slowly get the deposit paid off.

My car stopped working :-/ . I had it towed to the shop. The guy says the alternator went bad. He's charging me 380 to replace it. It's 150 something for the part and the rest is labor. I won't be able to pay him until I get paid Friday but it will be fixed by the end of today. Without a car I will have to pay someone to take me back and forth to work for the rest of this week. I'm flat broke too. I just did buy some more cat food. I ran completely out yesterday. More later.

First post of the new year

My life has become completely chaotic lately. Around Dec 27 my landlord came over to cut some branches or some shit and he saw one of my cats in the window. Long story short, I have to move out. I don't know how much time he's going to give me either. I found a place that accepts pets BUT they don't accept cats. You know me though, I don't give a damn. I'll move in anyway. I called the rental agency and asked why no cats. The lady said some shit about how even if cats don't pee on the floor or anything they just leave an 'odor' on the carpet and they always have to put in new carpets. Well, that's all well and good except this particular house has NO carpet. It's all hardwood floors. What kind of shit is that. I'd rather them know that I have cats so that this situation doesn't happen again. It's so hard to find places that accept pets. The rent is 200 bucks more than what I'm currently paying but if I can keep my cats it will be worth it. Time for work, more later.

Another holiday come and gone

I didn't have much of a thanksgiving. I had to work. I don't know why the hell at&t would want call centers open on a major holiday. Pretty much all other departments were closed but customer service had to be open. I'd be waiting 30 minutes before I got a call. They were asking people if they wanted to go home by 5p.m. so I said why not. I don't feel like I got off early though. I should have stayed until 7p.m.

It's a cold day here in Kansas. I have the heat on but the heating system in this house is crap. There is only one big vent in the living room. At least the cats get to stay warm. I don't open my door to let the heat in because they will come in and destroy my room.

Nothing much has been going on. I get up, go to work, come home, rinse and repeat. Pretty boring life I guess. I work from morning to night so there isn't time to do anything. On my off days I just stay in bed and sleep. More later...perhaps.

otanjoubi omedetou :D

kyou watashi wa nijuushichi sai desu :)

Back to the Beginning

I've been working at this call center for nearly two months now. It's an ok job but I can't see myself doing it for too long. I work 10 hour shifts. I only take two fifteen minute breaks so that I get paid for the entire 10 hours. Doing this five days a week is wearing me out though. True, I'm only sitting there on my ass taking phone calls but this is getting real old fast. I have been thinking about just going back to the beginning. Back in '99-2000 or so the only thing I did to make money was building websites and other e-commerce related activities. I didn't have to do anything else. Somewhere I got off track of what I really wanted. It has always been my goal to have a job doing what I liked. I got tired of web design and decided to take some nurse aide classes and be a cna but that shit gets old too. The only thing I do nowadays is go to work and come back home and sleep until it's time to do the same thing the next day. I use to have hobbies you know. I have pretty much stopped playing go altogether. I wasn't good at it but I at least knew what the hell I was doing. I tried playing the other day and I didn't know what the hell was going on. Its time for a reboot.

Updates Updates Updates

Well, a lot has happened since my last post. I've quit working at the nursing home for one. I got a B in Psychology and I still didn't even start that History class. It's due to be finished by the 15th and I seriously doubt I will suck it up and even get started at this point. I failed the english class since I didn't do any of the work and just stopped going to class altogether. I have a new job at a call center and I'm in week 4 of the 5 week training. Next week is on the job training so it should be fun. My 300 gig drive died on me a couple of days ago and I haven't yet gotten over the shock. I had hoped it could be saved but I think it got fried. The external case was very hot. Oh well I guess. *sob sob*

They're gonna give me a heart attack

I went to feed the cats and two of them were missing, Susumu and Sonar. There was huge hole in the screen in the second room too. I immediately started to panic. I went outside and around to the back and Susumu had come back by the window but Sonar was nowhere to be seen. I brought her back into the house and went outside again. I went to the backyard and started calling his name and didn't hear anything.. I got closer to the fence and called him and I heard him a little. He was right over in the yard behind the house to the right of mine. He was laying down and not moving so I thought he had been hurt or something. No matter what I said he just meowed and wouldn't move. I walked around to the neighbor's house and rang her doorbell (was an asian lady who apparently didn't like black people since she just opened the door and not the glass screen door and was standing back asking what I wanted). I told her my cat was in her backyard and if I could go back there and she said ok. I walked up to him and he just looked at me and wasn't moving so I rubbed him and then I started touching him all over and then I just grabbed him. He was perfectly fine. He was just so damn scared of being outside in the world that he couldn't move. That's a scaredy-cat for you. He's a pretty big ca too so that's just how sad he was. I'm just glad neither of them was hurt. I'm going to have to get something to fix that damn screen, however. God forbid my landlord drives by and notices the huge hole in the scren if Its left like it is for too long.

just like gravy

Since my last post I have gotten my ds-x fixed and am now living in homebrew heaven. I have installed apps to read my manga (ComicBookDS), listen to music and watch videos (MoonShell). Moonshell also views txt files so you could read ebooks too ;).

In other news, school sucks. I have 3 research papers due for english class and 1 due for psychology that I haven't done at all. Hell, I don't even know if I'll get them done at this rate either. I have also still not done my History class. I don't know if I haven't done anything because I'm burned out or because I'm just too damn lazy to get started (probably a little bit of both). I need to ge my ass in gear. If I don't pass these classes I'm going to be on academic and financial probation. The sad part is that I don't really give a damn.

damn ds-x

So, a few days ago I got a ds-x cart for my nintendo ds. My intention was to be able to listen to music while I was at work. That's the only time I even use my ds. I get this thing and it fucking craps out on me not even a full 24 hours later. I head over to the ds-x support site and put in a support ticket and get no response. I go to modchipstore.com's site and put in a support ticket and they give me the rma number so I can return it. Now I'm in a tough situation. If I can fix this piece of shit I'd rather fix it. It was nice for the hot minute it was working. So now I'm waiting on them to release the 3rd release of the fix. I wasn't told about it soon enough to be able to participate in the public beta which sucks ass. I'm telling these people that I want to attempt a fix before I can no longer get a refund. I'm not going to go through this shit again so I don't want a replacement. Everybody and their grandmother is having the same damn problem and getting another one will only set myself up for failure. I knew I should have gotten an ipod mini or something >.>

something funny is going on o.O

Well, Susumu doesn't have cancer or anything so far as the vet told me. He did say she was pregnant and he showed me she was lactating. She doesn't look like she's pregnant now though. Her nipples have gone down. I guess it's too much to hope that she's somehow miraculously aborted the babies. He said she was around 30 days along when I took her to the vet last week.

I took Tom and Jerry in to be neutered Tuesday. I only brought one carrier to pick them up. I went in there and I could hear two cats hissing and growling. They brought out two carriers with my cats. Apparently getting fixed makes their scent change and they were being mean to each other so they couldn't be in the same carrier. I took them home and let them loose and they seemed to calm down. The only problem was that Sonar was non too happy to have two unfamiliar males in the house so he was being extremely mean to all of the other cats, even Susumu because of it. It looks like he's gotten over it this morning. I'm glad. He was about to go into the carrier and take a time out. He was really getting on my nerves.

Oh no T_T

I went to feed the cats and my mama cat Susumu's belly looked funny. I picked her up and there are lumps around her nipples. I will have to call the vet first thing Monday and take her in. I hope it's not cancer. I love Susumu :(

Another update post

Man, I just haven't been posting as frequently as I'd like to. The semester is almost over and I still have not even started my online classes. I am so not motivated and don't really care about the ramifications to my gpa and financial aide should I fail the courses. I still have a chance to finish it but I will have to really get my ass in gear when I get off of work Monday night. I am doubtful that I will be finishing the courses because I simply do not care.

It's sad really, I don't take my online classes but I make sure to finish someone else's. I'm taking intermediate algebra for someone at another school (an online course, naturally) and I make sure to do his shit without fail. I usually procrastinate until Sunday which is a bad time to be doing math considering I just got off of work at 6:30 in the morning and only was able to take an hour nap after I took my shower and what not. This course is almost over. I only have to take the final for it since I just took the last chapter test. I really amazed myself. I've been struggling through the whole course (well...not really... my lowest grade was like a 78 and the rest of the grades have been A's or high B's). I got a 100 on the last chapter test and I was sure I failed it. It was dealing with functions, the quadratic formula and graphing parabolas. It's annoying as hell when you are doing that shit without a graphing calculator, that's for damn sure. You get 2 hours for each test and I finished with 30 minutes to spare. That's a long fucking time though for 20 questions. I probably would have taken a lot less time doing it if I knew where my graphing calculator was *sigh*. I should be glad that I know how to do this shit on paper, however...

Work sucks as usual. I go back for another hellish 16 hour shift today. I will have to start getting ready in about 45 minutes but first I will attend to my cats. I seriously want another job. I don't know how long I can hold out working at this shitty nursing home. I need a better paying job. I can't afford to keep working there really. I pay my bills and help my mom with hers and I just don't make enough money to pay everything. It wasn't a problem but the fucking alternator went out in the car and I had to pay 485 bucks to get it repaired. That put a big dent in my already dwindling bank account. Anyhow, I guess I should go feed my cats and such and get ready for work.